Are you ready for the New ...

 Good Monday morning, so honestly I was going to post every Sunday but now that my schedule is changing Monday's may be a better deal for me. YOU GUYS! The New Year is around the corner, are you ready? Are you nervous? Can you do me a favor and just thank yourself for getting through another year because baby it wasn't easy, no matter how many times you wanted to give up, You Didn't! You are the only person who can see what battles you're going through and I applaud you for taking care of yourself, making hard decisions and doing what's best for you. Someone has too ya know?! 

This new year I want to experience "free love" I feel like love these days always comes with a price. Hmm what is that price you may ask .. shit health, wealth, money, mental .. Should I keep going? I know what boundaries are and what they're in place for, 'cause I don't want you to lose yourself boo. A type of love you tell by a person actions saying "of course I love you" it's beautiful and I'm a romantic mess. So in the meantime put all that love that you want to express in another into you. You be that person, you become that another person you want to put love into. Shit I know I am, I love it honestly. Give yourself grace, gentleness & kindness. 

Now I'm not perfect I'm figuring this all just like ya'll. Everything may not be okay but everything will be okay. My wish for you this new coming year is for you to serve yourself more, don't be afraid of yourself. Don't forget to feed your talents. Don't worry about things you can't change. I want to be the girl that I am. I love being the adult women that I am. 

This year I want you to be discipline, I want you to laugh more, don't hold back those emotions that unfamiliar to you; learn them. Cry more, hug more, say I like you and I love you a lot more. Thanks for reading.

Have a great New Year & New Blessings to come your way.  

"We STill Gone Have Our Christmas Party?" ... 3 Days

 Good afternoon everybody how ya'll doing? I hope everyone is good, families are well and pockets are semi full or starving. Did you buy presents this year or are you happy to be alive another day? Both? One or the other? No matter what I'm proud of you. 

I'm so blessed to get my loves ones gifts this year. Have you every felt so nervous around the holidays because you don't know what to give people as gifts? You think to yourself like I know my people and any other day I know what they like but something around this holiday makes you feel like you have absolutely no idea what you should give this person as a gift. 

Good, now is your opportunity to ask them what's their favorite color again, now is your opportunity to ask hey what's your favorite animal? Then BOOM a squish mellow or any type of stuff animal in their favorite color. It just doesn't have to be hard to show someone how much you love or care about them that's all I'm saying. 

At this age in my life (29) what do I want for Christmas? I want better boundaries for myself and I want a hug from my maw-maw. I hope everyone gets a chance to experience the type of hug that just makes you feel loved. My maw-maw (grandma) had the best hugs from squeezing me tight and rocking me side to side, hearing her say "hey baby" every time she sees me. May my higher power keeps her soul at rest. I miss you. 

Boundaries. That word itself feels uneasy yeah? Feels a little selfish? I'm learning the relationship of this word and how to use the connections to it. Every one should have at least that a boundary that it set and stone. What's a boundary for you? Comment your below.

A boundary is like a bridge in any type of relationship that helps self understand their limit of how I should be with myself and how others should respect it accordingly. The feeling a boundary being crossed may feel uncomfortable or even overwhelmed etc.. I know I'm not perfect and I know I may had crossed someone boundaries and that lead them feeling yuck! Even myself and for that I'm sorry. 

By the way you know this doesn't just happened overnight, a lot of self reflection, a lot of feelings/emotions, a lot of just looking at your thoughts you know. No matter what steps you take to become a better person for you, I just want to tell you are doing a great job. Thank you being here.

1 week til Christmas Hoe

 Good evening yes, yes don't yell at me I know I'm a full week and some change (a couple days late) 

So lets talk, I've passed all of my exams! Yay! ya girl is getting this college thing down. Just want to say thank you for everyone who played apart in supporting, being my hype-man, continuing to reassure me about my own confidence, I love you thank you for being in my life.

Decided this will the perfect time to talk a little vacation to (drum roll) CHICAGO. Put this on the record that I love Chicago. Period. It's feels like an extending part of home, I love how it looks, the city life is everything, literally seeing people you never seen before, listening to the different languages. The feeling of returning home from your vacation be such a high everyone should experience it.  

Ladies go to a different state and go put that outfit on you feel most sexy in and walk. Your welcome.

I say this lightly if you are going to be American in America vacation should be taking so seriously because man! A mental break was fxcking had just putting you current reality on pause just to experience a new one for the moment and breathe some new fresh air. Please go - everything you leave behind is still going to be there, life is so much bigger than what's in front of us and so much wider or should I say wilder than anything we could imagine. 

I know jobs won't always allow it and the money be tight because we have bills and life expensive to worry about. I made a decision to just bet on me what can I shake up in my life to get to where I want to be, who I want to be, and how I want to this live in this place called America. Everything want to be perfect ass state but it's not perfect. 

NN That's On The Holiday Spirit

 Good morning everyone, Yes it is Monday morning, Sunday slip pass through me I hope everyone had a nice thanksgiving. After getting off work yesterday I gotten my milkshake to break in December! I can be honest I be soo in the spirit for holidays, I'm aware as I get older it changes; just starts to feel more water down. NO! I don't like that! Bring the smell of peppermint in the air, let me see the most unnecessary Christmas lights on every damn thing dog house, toilets, handcuffs (if you freaky in the spirit) but any damn thing! 

Am I the only one who late on buying a Christmas tree? No, it doesn't have a be a big tree at all but I definitely want one when I get a house, you know what ... Let me express something that just came to mind, I've been apartments majority of my life the first time I lived in a house was maybe 2018 no matter where I lived though their was always a tree in the house. Thanks mom. 

Who the fxck said you can't have a tree even if you live in a fxcking shoebox?! I'm going to get a tree an it maybe be small or medium or whatever but baby when the holiday is over I'm probably going to throw it away. I'm not saving the damn tree sorry say what you wanna say. I think saving the tree if its a big fake one is more for a house with extra rooms and basements but baby what I look like putting a tree in my closet and wait for the next 11 months to get it out again. NOPE! 

Lets talk about gift giving for a second how do you feel about it? Is it over whelming to you does it make you nervous or are you already at that pro level of getting the perfect for everyone you love even strangers/ coworkers? When comes to secret santa saint nick ain't got shit on you! Yeah I'm slowly trying to get our my nervous sack of gift giving and just do it because I do be overthinking about the person, if they would like the gift, what if they don't instead of just enjoying it ya know be surprise and thankful that you thought about this person. No matter what, do it from the kindness of your heart, love and tenderness. 

NN That's on the holidays spirit. I love you, see you next time.